Monthly Archives: January 2013

Don’t Worry

The best advice I’ve ever got is to not worry. Sometimes it’s hard to follow this advice, but if you can do it, you will find things a lot easier to deal with. When you’re really busy or when things are just not going your way, you may feel stressed out. The best thing you can do is to stop thinking about everything and focus on one thing at a time. Put everything in order from the most important to the least important and deal with them separately, in that order. It’s really not that hard to do and I’ve found it ridiculously helpful. I got this advice directly from the Lord. Just read Mathew 6: 25-34.

Sometimes not worrying means you have to stop. If you have to stop, do it. If you have a million things on your mind or a million things to do, it can make it impossible to actually do anything. If that’s the case then just STOP and do something fun. Play guitar (or any instrument) or do some puzzles online or play with your pets or draw; anything that will help you relax and take your mind off things.

I’ve shared this advice with a few people, so I thought I’d just post it here.

P.S. Apparently this is my 77th post. UBER LUCKY NUMBER!!!!!!!!

Playing God

As a writer, I’m basically playing God. Spoiler Alert! My story starts out by me basically abusing one of my main characters. While I was writing about it, I felt awfully bad. I said to myself, “Self, this has to happen for the rest of the story to work out.” I wonder if this is how God feels when He lets bad things happen.

I’m a weirdo, so I read a bunch of stuff about the Biblical apocalypse online last night. People make it sound awfully scary. I guess it is sort of scary. I’ve had this weird interest in the end of the world lately. I guess it’s like being part of a story and wanting to know the end. Maybe knowing the end of a story before it happens isn’t such a good thing–unless you’re writing it, that is. Maybe knowing that you or your friend are going to die ahead of time isn’t such a good thing.

If you could know the time, place and cause of your death, would you want to? What if you spent the rest of your days trying to avoid it and in doing so, you made it happen? I don’t think I would want to know. At the same time though, if you knew, maybe you could bring yourself to peace with it and it wouldn’t be as bad or scary when it actually happened.

I’m a very present-oriented person. The past irritates me and the future scares me a little. I like to have a routine and I like my stuff the way it is. I don’t like change. When my mom said she was going to buy me an iPhone 5, I was thoroughly annoyed with her. I already had a working phone! I’ve since got used to it, though.

I do like learning new things, which is why I find photography fun. I need to get better at it though. Some of my pictures are blurry. I’ve been teaching myself a few new covers on guitar. I have a set list that’s comfortably 40 minutes long. If I practice a bunch I can probably play for 2 hours or so. I want to go work in the studio some more, but my friend has been ignoring his phone! I actually need to update the set list a bit. I’m going to do that now and then I’m going to write!

Coffee Time!

Well, it’s Coffee Time. Normally Coffee Time happens early in the morning and involves listening to music, doing homework and praying. Usually I act like a crazy person (there is sometimes screaming involved) and freaking GET IT DONE!!!! I usually do this because I need to get homework done before class, but today I’m doing it because I need to buckle down and get my novel written! I just want to say a HUGE thank you to Candace at Change It Up Editing for following my blog and for telling me to cut the crap and just write.

So peeps…. Do her a favor and check it out at Chang It Up Editing

Because in my world guinea pigs can fly!


Loser by Beck

This song has nothing to do with anything…

Sometimes I feel like a bit of a loser. I know I lack the ambition that many artists have to carry them to success. I know many artists–of any kind will sit and work on their projects for hours and days and weeks almost non-stop. I know I want to be a writer. I have a goal. I want to be published. I also know I don’t work as hard as I could towards that goal. It’s partly because I get distracted by my friends and my other artsy hobbies, but it’s partly because I’m perfectly content to do nothing and just play stupid games on my phone or watch movies or read fantasy stories. Part of my problem is that I hate doing research and I kind of suck at it. Part of the problem is that I’ve been awfully lucky. I’ve had some success just given to me. Don’t get me wrong, I’m very thankful for that. Part of the problem might be that I doubt myself a little. I see people who are much more talented and successful than myself all over the place and I wonder if I’ll ever even make it.

I’ve decided to stop playing video games for a while; quit cold turkey. I think I was getting a little addicted to Minecraft. I’ve also decided I have to do at least one artsy thing every day. I meant to be a lot more productive over break than I have been, and I regret wasting the time that I did. I’m going back to school on the 16th. I haven’t checked my grades from last semester. I feel like I probably got at least B’s in most of my classes, but I really just kind of don’t want to know. They’ll send them in the mail eventually anyway. I think I made a mistake with the courses I chose last semester. It was A LOT of work. I think I planned much better for the coming semester. I’ll have to try and make a new friend though because my friend Lydia is finishing college in Italy and then going straight to France to work. All my high school friends will of course go back to college.

Well, I’m determined to work on my novel for a few hours tonight. I think I’ve almost figured out how it’s going to end. I haven’t actually written a whole lot yet, but I’ve been planning it out for weeks now. Once it’s finished I WILL get it published. I’m not going to put a ton of work into this without doing something with it! I don’t care if I get super popular. I just want to be able to support myself.

My Pictures

These are just a few of the pictures I’ve taken since I got my camera. I have more, but these are the coolest. Once I have enough to make a long enough slide show I’m going to post them on Zenfolio and put some of my music to it so that you guys can see and hear my stuff!

My dad and I saw these 2 in the parking lot while we were getting sandwiches on the way to Maine
My dad and I saw these 2 in the parking lot while we were getting sandwiches on the way to Maine
I took this last night with the lights off. I thought it had a cool effect.
I took this last night with the lights off. I thought it had a cool effect.
Hey look! Snow happens in Maine.... go figure!
Hey look! Snow happens in Maine…. go figure!
My friend, Lydia drew this on a chalk board in my Kitchen. I edited it a bit for fun.
My friend, Lydia drew this on a chalk board in my Kitchen. I edited it a bit for fun.
This lamp always makes cool shadows on the wall in our living room.
This lamp always makes cool shadows on the wall in our living room.
The first entry into the "Piles" project
The first entry into the “Piles” project

Well, that’s about it. I’ve also made many pictures from scratch. These are just 2 of my favorites.


I made this one using Paint.NET. It’s free and pretty fun to play with. I basically drew all the shapes around the heart with different shades of blue and purple and then blurred them all together.


The namesake of my blog…. This was really fun to make. I got a picture of a guinea pig off of Google and used a color changing tool to make it green. Then I got a picture of wings that was black and white at the time and used different shades of green that were in the guinea pig’s fur to fill it in. Then I cut the guinea pig off of one canvas and pasted it on top of the wings on another.