Justice, Judgement And Forgiveness

I don’t know why, but it feels sort of awkward to me when I see people praying in public. It’s even weirder for me when people write prayers on the internet. Prayer is a very private thing for me, so when I see people throwing their prayers out there for everyone to see, it’s a bit uncomfortable for some reason.

I know this probably isn’t a good thing, but I even find it hard to pray with other people. I don’t often have the opportunity, so I guess it just throws me out of my comfort zone a little. I don’t think I’m particularly good at praying, so the thought of leading a prayer terrifies me. Some people my age are just so much more eloquent when they pray, and it’s rather intimidating. I think part of my problem is that I equate eloquence with the power or effectiveness of the prayer. I know I shouldn’t and I don’t even have any reason to because God answers my prayers no mater how pathetically expressed they were.

I think it’s uncomfortable for me when people write prayers on the internet because I think there is a fine line between being honest and showing off. I always have a suspicion that people are writing prayers on the internet to show off. They might not even know it, but somewhere in the back of their minds people think, “I’ll show the world how good I am. Watch this.” I’m probably being cynical to a degree simply because of the way I feel about prayer. I pray about things that most people care about and are worried about. I pray about the things that are going on in Syria, etc, but I also pray about very personal things, and it’s the personal stuff that I really don’t want people to know about. I think maybe I just have trouble letting people know about my spiritual life, partly because I really don’t want to make anyone feel uncomfortable.

The thing is, I don’t think someone’s spiritual life should be entirely comfortable. I know from experience that it’s an ongoing learning process and I get worried when I feel too comfortable because I feel like I’m missing something. I guess I just don’t want to personally be the cause of someone’s discomfort and maybe that’s selfish. Jesus was constantly making people feel uncomfortable, and I love him for it.

Lately I’ve been a bit worried about the issue of tolerance, courtesy of a post by a friend of mine. As a Christian, how much am I supposed to tolerate, and where is it my duty to not tolerate things? For the most part, I try not to judge people’s beliefs. I grew up among a group of friends and relatives who believe many different things and because of that I believe that for the most part, truth can be found in most philosophies and religions as well as scientific fields.

It’s when we get to morality that the tolerance issue becomes uncomfortable for me. A couple of my friends have told me that had sex in this past year. I still believe that sex and marriage are sacred things and that you shouldn’t do it unless you are married. I haven’t said that of course because I don’t want to offend them. On one level I believe that it’s not really hurting anyone, so who am I to judge? On another level I believe that it’s not my place to judge because God judges everyone and everything. On another level I wonder if I’m ever supposed to judge anything if I’m supposed to be a servant of God and try to spread his Word and his love. On yet another level I simply want to know right and wrong and judge people because it’s human nature. It’s all very confusing.

Ultimately, my worry is that I would end up forgiving people for terrible things and end up getting hurt because of it. On another level, culturally, it’s weird to be very forgiving. I’m not trying to sound self righteous or anything, but I’m a very forgiving person, and I have found myself forgiving people for things and then feeling weird about forgiving them. I also don’t feel that my forgiveness excused them in any way. Forgiveness doesn’t make bad things right. Most of the time I just don’t feel like staying angry at someone does any good. People who do terrible things usually have to pay for them one way or another, whether it means going to jail or just living with their conscience.

I guess that’s all I have rattling around in my head for now.

Because in my world guinea pigs can fly!


Hey everyone! I’ve joined this contest through Guitar Center, and I’d seriously appreciate it if you’d at least check this link out. It would be awesome if y’all would share it with your friends and family, because the more people who check it out, the better the odds of my doing well in the contest are. If I win I’ll get a lot of great prizes including the chance to make a 4 song EP basically for free.

Thanks in advance to those of you who check this out.

Because in my world guinea pigs can fly!

Being Someone Else

I’ve done 2 posts on my new “Dry World” blog, not including the “About” page. It was a bit shaky starting off, but I think I’m getting the hang of being Kithryd. I’m starting to understand how she thinks and what she wants out of life. I’ll admit she was based on myself when I got the idea for the blog and first started writing, but she’s already starting to develop qualities that are far different than my own. For one thing, she’s more snarky and sarcastic than I am. Her personality is just generally more serious. The biggest difference is that she likes math and wanted to major in engineering before the world fell apart. Just for the record, I suck at math and I don’t like it. It’s interesting trying to get inside a character’s head, especially when it’s a character you’re creating.

I’m taking a fiction writing class at school and right now we’re focusing on Character development. At first I was terrified at the idea of taking a fiction writing class because I thought I would be terrible at writing it. My first assignment was to write a story based around a strong character, so I wrote a story about a mother and daughter who have very strong and clashing personalities and who are forced to work together to decorate a house. Throughout the story I tried to hint at the fact that their relationship isn’t very good, and it ends very badly. I’ve only passed in my first draft, so there’s time to make changes, which I’m sure I’ll need to do.

I’m writing “Dry World” in the first person and I wrote my other story in the third person. I think I’m better at writing in the third person, but I wanted the blog to be authentic, which meant I didn’t have much of a choice. I just think it would be hard to do a blog from a third person perspective.

The link to “Dry World” is on the designated page. Please check it out. Feedback would really be awesome.

Because in my world guinea pigs can fly!

A Voice For Peace

Hey guys.

This is really important.

I’ve been watching the news lately and I’ve been praying because it seems like we’re super close to going to war with Syria. I really don’t think simply sending some missiles over there is a good idea, nor will it be the end of our interactions with that poor country. It will lead to war, undoubtedly. These kinds of attacks always do. I do not believe that war is a reasonable answer to our problems any longer. Our weapons have become too advanced and dangerous and going to war with Syria will only lead to conflicts with their allies; something we cannot afford.

This is a time when we must set aside our differences, our religious views and our political opinions and band together to fight for peace. We must sing, play and write our hearts out so that our voices may be heard. If this is truly the United States of America; a country governed by the people for the people, then we do have a say, and we can make a difference. No one is too small or quiet to make a difference. You can help simply by blogging or making flyers to hand out at your work or school. If you agree that we cannot send missiles over to Syria, please “like” and reblog this post.



Email Miracle

Just because I’m in school again does not mean that music is getting left in the dust. Something amazing happened 3 days ago. I had sent an email blast towards the end of my vacation to all the places that would potentially let me make noise in their venue for a night. On August 30th, I heard back from my favorite; the Gulu Gulu Cafe in Salem Massachusetts. I was told that I had 4 hours to work with from 8:00 to midnight and that if I didn’t want to play that long I needed to find openers. Just a few minutes ago I heard back from my friend Nate. He and a girl I met at an open mic named Amanda have both agreed to open for me.

We’ll each get to play for about an hour and 20 minutes, which is super cool. Now all I need to do is come up with a set list that’s long enough and awesome enough to get the audience to like me for that long. I’ll be playing most of my originals, including the ones that won’t be going on my first album and a few covers including some from my friend Ken’s old band since he’ll be accompanying me on lead guitar. You can check them out on iTunes; just look up Meet The Day.

To be honest, I wasn’t expecting to get this gig. I’ve been either rejected or ignored so many times that I was just scratching my head and wondering what to do next or instead. Getting this gig and getting opening acts was so easy that I really do think this some kind of gift or push in the right direction; maybe even just assurance that this is what I should be doing. Sometimes I come across opportunities like this seemingly by accident, and I’m sure that the Lord has something to do with it. It doesn’t always have to do with music either; I think he probably had something to do with finding the right school or getting runner up in a state wide poetry contest that I submitted song lyrics to.

Because in my world guinea pigs can fly!